For the last three weeks I’ve been in the process of accomplishing an Instagram 30 day yoga challenge. Everyday since March 1st, I have been completing one yoga pose from a challenge Yoga.com put on a few years ago. I make sure to get proof by photographing the pose and then I’m supposed to post the picture on Instagram.
When I originally browsed Pinterest for a 30 day yoga challenge for the month of March, I kinda had a hard time finding any that were a little more advanced. That’s why I chose to do this yoga challenge.
I’m sure the most difficult poses in this 30 day yoga challenge are nothing special for the advanced student, but a few have certainly given me a run for my money, with the hardest days still ahead.
With the exception of doubling up on a pose for a couple days here and there, I am pretty impressed my fogged up brain is actually remembering to do it. In fact, part of the time I won’t even wait till the last possible minute! I’ll “strike” my pose while it’s still light outside, if you can believe that!
Sometimes I remember to complete the pose when my husband is still awake, which is awesome because he can be my photographer.
Now that still leaves the rest of the time, when all of a sudden it’s midnight (I say that because the sitcom, Cheers comes on at midnight, and when I hear the theme music playing in the background, somehow I associate it with the yoga challenge), and then I realize I haven’t done my daily pose yet.
Depending on the difficulty of the pose, I’ll either muster up the energy to drag my butt off the couch, my makeshift office, or hold off till the next day. And as I mentioned earlier, that’s when I would double up on the poses.
Even though I flaked a couple times, truth be told, I’m feeling solid on how I’m doing overall. With that being said, between completing my pose of the day and my month long challenge of doing one thing different on a daily basis (which is going swimmingly I might add!), I must’ve depleted my supply of self-discipline.
And when my self-discipline a-goes a-buh bye,
at times many times I subconsciously invite self-sabotage in to make my life harder than it needs to be!
I say this because as I am diligently staying on top of my yoga poses, my motivation seems to fade shortly after I shoot the photo. After the pictures are taken, I get them ready to post onto Instagram, but that’s where my momentum (if you can even call it that…) comes to a screeching halt!
See, I didn’t even begin posting the pictures till 2 weeks into the challenge. I started behind right from the get-go, so I’ve sort of been trying to play catch up in order for the pose of the day to actually post on the assigned uh, you know, DAY!
And when I say “sort of been trying,” I really mean I haven’t been trying too hard at all. I still have a plenty more days left to post before I’m on schedule. *sigh*
Oh I definitely think about posting the photos. I think about it a lot actually, so it’s not like I’m just some scatterbrain.
Yeah, you’re right. I knew it as soon as I typed it.
Recently I have been some scatterbrain, ditz, space cadet, etc. In spite of that, I can’t use the airhead excuse like I did when I not only left my keys in the ignition, but left the motor running.
But I digress.
So! Although I tell myself, “Kathryn (yup, the real name comes out when I’m a bit honked off at myself), post the frickin’ pictures,” over and over again throughout the day, I just don’t do it.
Can you say, “Self-sabotage?”
And the longer I put something off, the more anxiety builds up behind it, not to mention the more work that piles up, therefore, making the task just that much more difficult to carry out.
I know, I know, I know, this is not some life-changing event, but it’s important to me to finish this humdinger! On top of that, if I just stop because it’s not as easy as I would have liked, I guarantee that’d make me feel considerably worse.
Gaaaaah, by the way I’m talking one would think I was putting off this enormously important project.
I mean, honestly. It’s Instagram. Geeeez…
Why Am I Flipping Doing This to Myself?
When taking a moment to try and figure out what the deal was, it basically boiled down to lack of confidence. I think maybe I’m self-conscious that someone would be judgmental, whether it be my looks, weight, flexibility, etc.
Just letting you know, prior to this 30 day yoga challenge, I really didn’t give two poo poo’s who enjoyed my photos or who felt they were ca ca! However, since I feel both yoga and dance heavily involve flexibility as well as strength, in my mind, if someone reacts negatively to one of the pics, my brain would automatically relate that to my abilities as a dancer.
And just like that, all my achievements, accolades, the people (who’ve claimed) I’ve made a difference for, even my 15 years as a professional dancer, don’t mean anything. I’ve managed to convince myself if one person thinks I suck, then it must be true.
Wait a sec. I get it. If someone told me they felt that way, I’d think they were being ridiculous. So I know how silly I sound, I just have such a hard time thinking otherwise.
Bey hey, I never said there wasn’t a little crazy in me though;-)
Who else out there is sometimes known for sabotaging their efforts? Does it show up in the form of procrastination? Maybe when it comes to eating healthfully? Or what about needing help, but not wanting to ask for it? I’d really love to hear your thoughts! (It would also be relieving to know I’m not alone;-)
Anywho, as you probably noticed, I’ve only shown a few days of the 30 day yoga challenge throughout the post. I’d love for you to go check out more of the poses over on my Instagram page! And if we haven’t connected on Instagram yet, let’s do it!
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